TRUST

Tomorrow I am flying to Washington D.C.. I am so excited to meet one of my oldest and dearest friend's daughter- Hadley. I will only be there for a night, but then will be picked up by another dear friend, Jenny, and we will venture off to see Karin in Roanoke, Virgina where Sara will be coming in to visit with us. I am SO looking forward to spending some time away with my good girlfriends from childhood. We have learned and grown so much together- spiritual, emotional, etc. and I LOVE catching up and just spending time together--it's been way too long.

Now, some of you are going to flip out and think that we are crazy for doing this, but since Archie has his piloting liscense now, he is planning to fly down to get me and bring me home in his dad's small plane. I am a little nervous about this because he has never flown 6 hours before, nor have I flown with him for a few years, but I trust my husband. Since we don't have a will---ooops!---we wrote up a legal document stating what our intentions are for our children if something should happen to us. I know, I need to talk to our lawyer and get him to draw us up a real will. This is now on my list to do!

Writing up this document and really thinking about what could happen with our children was difficult and I cried doing it. I even started to second guess if we should go or not, but then I remembered God's promise to me---Proverbs 3: 5,6 This is a verse that has always been our favorite. It says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean onto your own understanding, in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." I do not want to live in fear and think about what could happen if . . ., I don't want to be bound in fear. I want to trust that God is in control and He has a plan for our lives. Archie and I have prayed about this together and alone for awhile now and we feel good about our decision of Archie taking his dad's plane and flying over some mountains to pick me up in Virgina. This is an exciting endeavor for us to take together! I am not for sure, 100% all knowing that everything is going to go the way that we want it to--but that is why I am trusting God to bring us home safely- so we can see our 3 little precious children again. If things don't go the way that we have planned- we would be in Paradise which is far better than ANYTHING that is here on earth. I just need to remember that God has a plan for me and it is a GOOD one--I just need to trust Him.

Happy Mother's Day

I received this poem from a friend a few weeks ago and wanted to post it-

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held down a screaming child

so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn't know the feeling of

having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond

between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night

every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom . . .

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,

before I was a Mom .

Madison and Me

Madison and I watched Marley and Me tonight and I was touched. I did not know what the movie was exactly about, but I knew that Jennifer Anniston and Owen Wilson was in it and that there was a dog named Marley. Since Archie was working late, and the boys were going to be in bed soon, I popped some popcorn and we sat down to watch the movie.

I thoroughly enjoyed watching this movie with my daughter. Since we do not have a dog, or any pets for that matter, it was fun to watch a family deal with the new changes that a dog would bring. Madison and I watched a journey of life for a family and laughed together. It was fun to see how a family would cope with a puppy, then a baby, then another baby, and overall life happenings. I didn't mind pausing the DVD when Madison had questions about if this was a true story or not and I loved hearing her little remarks during the movie. Things she said that really got me were, " Whoa, that boy really grew up- didn't he? and "that dog was a better listener when he was a puppy, now he is a really bad dog." But, what I really enjoyed was the crying that we did together. That probably sounds really weird, but this is the first movie that we have seen together where we BOTH have cried. Usually it's just me wiping my tears away and her asking why I was crying. But tonight was different. We both embarked on this journey in Marley and Me together and ended at the same place together. It was sweet. We actually held each other for a brief moment with tears gently falling down our faces. I look forward to being my daughter's friend in the future- that will be something sweet.