Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Remember
I need to remember that Jesus came to serve and that is what I am called to do also. Plain and simple. The thing is that Jesus did it kindly and in a pleasant way, while I have become frustrated and annoyed far too easily. I want to serve my family and friends with a kind and loving heart. God, help me to serve my family and friends the way that you would like me to. Give me the strength to do so. Amen.
Monday, December 15, 2008
The Christmas cards are all sent and the tree finally has lights on it! Life is grand. Today we had a family day at the Museum of Science and Industry. It was the kids' first time going and they all had fun. We were able to visit many of the exhibits even though we were there for 3 hours. Here is what we saw: Christmas trees from around the world (my favorite), a gigantic train set up (Caleb's favorite) , the US 501 (?)submarine (Madison's favorite), baby chicks, aviation everything (Archie's favorite), farm equipment, space equipment and information on the Apollo, and the children's museum(Christian's favorite). It was an eventful day.
To top it off, Madison and I attended our church's Christmas musical which really got me into the "right" Christmas spirit. The music was beautiful and the talent in the church is just amazing. I have not created any time to just sit and enjoy this Christmas season yet, but watching the musical tonight, made me really think that I need to- and I want to. I want to make sure that I don't allow the business of the season to beat me down, rather I want to spend some time marveling at what God has done- isn't it amazing that God sent Jesus to the earth and had him born in a stable and laid in a manger for the beginning days of his life? How humbling is that? That the King of Kings-gave up heaven- for earth---for us! Amazing! I hope that all of us will take some time to really think about God's love for us and what it still means for us today during this Christmas season.
Here are some pictures of what we have been up to:

Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I am thankful for. . . life
I am thankful for life. Just as it is. The Coleman 5 are definitely busy people and at times I think that we need more simplicity and I become frustrated that we are so busy- but that's our life. From Archie flying and working many long hours, to me teaching part time and making some "good" time with family and friends, to Madison going to Awana and Daisys, and then to the boys just being boys- running around, screaming, jumping, tearing books apart--that is our life right now--and it is good. We make it a point to spend family time together and Archie and I believe that it is very important for our children to learn the basics and the foundations of what we believe so we spend time doing these things. If we are running around in the evenings, hopping to family to family to celebrate holidays together--so be it. We love our family and friends and they are such an integral part of our life.
I have longed to come down to the basement and spend hours on email, facebook, and my blog--but I don't have hours in my day (unless I stay up late- which I am trying not to do) so that is alright . . . that's my life at this moment in time. One day I won't have these busy moments and kids running around fighting for my attention. I am choosing to cherish those busy moments now and am learning to enjoy those moments that are "not so much fun." When the kids are attacking me (I think I am claustrophobic--scuba diving story to come at a later date), hitting one another, not obeying me, refusing to eat, complaining, making messes- the list can go on and on--I am starting to learn how to enjoy them since I am just beginning to see the grace of God poured into them--and God gives me the grace and love to love my kids and Archie like they need to be loved.
I think I have rambled on- so be it-. My point--As busy as we are--our life is filled with good things and beneficial things--that's the Coleman 5 and life is good!
What to come:
- pictures of life around the house, Thanksgiving, cutting down our tree, and the first snow! Yippee! I hope to go sledding this weekend with the kids!
To those of you I scared with the boys standing in their high chairs- no more need to worry! The boys have graduated from their highchairs and have joined us at the table--with straps! They LOVE sitting at the table with us and are now learning basic table manners such as not to roll your sippy cup accross the table and to keep your hands to yourself- it's a working progress.
I have longed to come down to the basement and spend hours on email, facebook, and my blog--but I don't have hours in my day (unless I stay up late- which I am trying not to do) so that is alright . . . that's my life at this moment in time. One day I won't have these busy moments and kids running around fighting for my attention. I am choosing to cherish those busy moments now and am learning to enjoy those moments that are "not so much fun." When the kids are attacking me (I think I am claustrophobic--scuba diving story to come at a later date), hitting one another, not obeying me, refusing to eat, complaining, making messes- the list can go on and on--I am starting to learn how to enjoy them since I am just beginning to see the grace of God poured into them--and God gives me the grace and love to love my kids and Archie like they need to be loved.
I think I have rambled on- so be it-. My point--As busy as we are--our life is filled with good things and beneficial things--that's the Coleman 5 and life is good!
What to come:
- pictures of life around the house, Thanksgiving, cutting down our tree, and the first snow! Yippee! I hope to go sledding this weekend with the kids!
To those of you I scared with the boys standing in their high chairs- no more need to worry! The boys have graduated from their highchairs and have joined us at the table--with straps! They LOVE sitting at the table with us and are now learning basic table manners such as not to roll your sippy cup accross the table and to keep your hands to yourself- it's a working progress.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Look at what we can do!
It's amazing to see what kids will do when you step away for a minute or two. The boys LOVE to stand in their highchairs. Don't ask me why I didn't belt them in- I just didn't- but this is what the boys were doing when I came back from loading the washing machine downstairs. Are they too cute to discipline?
Christian smiling so sweetly-
Caleb doesn't know what to think-
Madison being her cute and sweet self. She was dying for me to come up and see what she did. She was so proud of herself for accomplishing the whole alphabet AND the numbers too! My little girl is growing up! Madison is LOVING kindergarten and is learning SO much. Tonight when I was putting her to bed, she asked me how my day of teaching was. I told her about how my students and I started a new story and how we discussed it during class. She then asked me if we made any connections today while we read- I told her that we actually did and that I can't believe how smart she was becoming. What a fun little gift to get tonight -not from a daughter to a mother- but from a student to a reading teacher. For those of you that don't know- making connections is a reading strategy that we teach to help students understand and relate to what they are reading- very encouraging!
Archie got the flu last night and has been in bed all day. He had a fever of 101.5 degrees and it finally broke tonight. Hopefully he will be feeling better tomorrow. It's almost the weekend! Yes! We will be helping my mom get some things organized in her house on Saturday, but after that- we have no plans all weekend! Yes! I love these kinds of weekends!
Last night, before Archie got sick, we went to Awana for a Parent's Night with Madison. Here is a picture thatAwana took of Archie and Madison. For those of you that are thinking "what is awana?"- Awana is a VERY fun place where Madison learns about God, plays games, and sings songs on a weekly basis- kind of like Vacation Bible School. When I say it's VERY fun- it's only because the first 2 times that she went to Awana- she told me that she wanted to go over a HUNDRED more times! That means that she had a VERY fun time. She was SO excited that we were BOTH able to come and be a part of her evening. It was good to spend some time away from the boys just focusing our attention on her. It was so rewarding as a parent to hear Madison recite 2 verses to her group leader. If anybody looked at us they would seen a nutty group of 3 with beaming smiles - it was fun to be together! Thanks Aunt Julie for making this possible- she watched the boys!
Christian smiling so sweetly-

Sunday, November 2, 2008
Hello- we are still here!
These pictures are not in order from when the events occurred.
ORCHARD-



We had a wonderful time going to the same apple orchard that we went to last year- and Daddy was able to come with us this time! From picking pumpkins, to picking apples, to riding on a hayride- we all had a wonderful time being together.
Here is a picture of the kids last year- I can't believe how much all 3 of them have grown! Crazy!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I am not posting pictures since my camera is upstairs and I don't want to get up and go get it- am I lazy or tired?
It just turned midnight and I JUST got done with "money stuff" and going through my pile of papers that have been piling up for the past few weeks- finally! It feels good to have that done. I have put all of our birthday parties, family outings, etc. in the palm pilot and have paid bills online. Now I can enjoy blogging and possibly go on my facebook. What can I say- I AM a night owl.
School has been challenging. Many of my students are needy and I am becoming emotionally exhausted trying to help them. I am also behind grading. I should probably be doing that now, but after the day that I have had at school- and at home- I don't want to grade any papers. Enough said about that.
Friday was my mom's b-day so after school the kids, my mom, Laura, and I went out for pizza at one of my mom' favorite places. After that, she helped my put the kids to bed and then I helped her pick out pictures that she wanted to print from the past year and then we stayed up until 1:15 a.m. on Facebook. I taught her how to find friends and to add comments. It fun spending time together. Needless to say that I did have a difficult time waking up for the apple orchard at 7:00 the next morning. Good think Archie is so patient and helpful!
We went to an apple orchard with my sisters and had a blast. The boys LOVED picking apples and eating them right away. Laura and Julie both found some pumpkins to bring home and had a good time cutting them off of the vine. But, the donuts were the best part for me- besides just being together as a family. The donuts that they sell are apple cider cinnamon and it was worth the one year wait for them once again.
Madison had her soccer game that we almost slept through since we were so tired from the orchard, but we made it there in time. She of course has fun on the field, but I will say that after three goals were scored while she was goalie- maybe goalie isn't the best position for her to play. Grandma and Grandpa Coleman came to Madison's soccer game so that made the day extra special.
On Sunday, to celebrate my mom's b-day, my sisters, Archie, and I took my mom out to brunch and went to a show at Pheasant Run. Archie's parents graciously watched the kids and everyone had a wonderful day.
I hope that I can get caught up with all the things that I need to- if not, it will still be there and so will I.
It just turned midnight and I JUST got done with "money stuff" and going through my pile of papers that have been piling up for the past few weeks- finally! It feels good to have that done. I have put all of our birthday parties, family outings, etc. in the palm pilot and have paid bills online. Now I can enjoy blogging and possibly go on my facebook. What can I say- I AM a night owl.
School has been challenging. Many of my students are needy and I am becoming emotionally exhausted trying to help them. I am also behind grading. I should probably be doing that now, but after the day that I have had at school- and at home- I don't want to grade any papers. Enough said about that.
Friday was my mom's b-day so after school the kids, my mom, Laura, and I went out for pizza at one of my mom' favorite places. After that, she helped my put the kids to bed and then I helped her pick out pictures that she wanted to print from the past year and then we stayed up until 1:15 a.m. on Facebook. I taught her how to find friends and to add comments. It fun spending time together. Needless to say that I did have a difficult time waking up for the apple orchard at 7:00 the next morning. Good think Archie is so patient and helpful!
We went to an apple orchard with my sisters and had a blast. The boys LOVED picking apples and eating them right away. Laura and Julie both found some pumpkins to bring home and had a good time cutting them off of the vine. But, the donuts were the best part for me- besides just being together as a family. The donuts that they sell are apple cider cinnamon and it was worth the one year wait for them once again.
Madison had her soccer game that we almost slept through since we were so tired from the orchard, but we made it there in time. She of course has fun on the field, but I will say that after three goals were scored while she was goalie- maybe goalie isn't the best position for her to play. Grandma and Grandpa Coleman came to Madison's soccer game so that made the day extra special.
On Sunday, to celebrate my mom's b-day, my sisters, Archie, and I took my mom out to brunch and went to a show at Pheasant Run. Archie's parents graciously watched the kids and everyone had a wonderful day.
I hope that I can get caught up with all the things that I need to- if not, it will still be there and so will I.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I wonder if I lost any of you. . .
I am now on FACEBOOK and loving it! It's so addicting, but I am trying to limit my amount of time on it. So, if any of you are on FACEBOOK, let's be friends. Today I was supposed to be observed but since my observer had to break up 2 fights, she did not come to observe me. I think that my students liked and learned from my lesson so that's a good thing. I will tell you that this new school that I am at, is definitely different from my other one. We'll have to see what happens next year.
Here are some pics so you know what we have been up to.
Here we are outside today playing in the yard. The kids loved playing in the leaves.

Here is Christian's 1st Harley!

What do you think of my new haircut? I love it but Archie thinks that if it's this short then I should just go bald!
Here are some pics so you know what we have been up to.
Here we are outside today playing in the yard. The kids loved playing in the leaves.
Here is Christian's 1st Harley!
What do you think of my new haircut? I love it but Archie thinks that if it's this short then I should just go bald!
Christian praying-
Caleb praying-

Caleb blowing kisses- another bedtime ritual- well, it actually started at bedtime, but it occurs throughout the whole day!

Caleb playing-

Christian stood and posed for this one- he definitely knows the camera! Good boy!
I took off a day of work last week and had the wonderful opportunity to bring Madison to school and to pick her up. It was SO much fun! Here is Madison after school holding the door open for her classmates. We had such a wonderful day together and when the boys were napping, that is when I became a FACEBOOK member!
A few weeks ago, Archie and I traveled to Peoria to attend a Murder Mystery party with our dear friends Todd and Becky. We had SO much fun! Archie was the character "murdered" and we all had to try to figure out who did it. The white flour on his face symbolizes his death.
Caleb blowing kisses- another bedtime ritual- well, it actually started at bedtime, but it occurs throughout the whole day!
Caleb playing-
Christian stood and posed for this one- he definitely knows the camera! Good boy!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Let's remember September 11, 2001


I received this forward three times today and thought that I should post it:
'MEET ME IN THE STAIRWELL'
You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news On September 11, 2001. Neither will I. I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it is OK..I am ready to go.' I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children. I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night. I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said. 'Of course I will show you the way home - only believe in Me now.' I was at the base of the building with the Priest ministering to the injured and devastated souls. I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He heard my voice and answered. I was on all four of those planes, in every seat, with every prayer. I was with the crew as they were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the believers there, comforting and assuring them that their faith has saved them. I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan ... I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. Did you sense Me? I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew every name - though not all know Me. Some met Me for the first time on the 86th floor. Some sought Me with their last breath. Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the smoke and flames; 'Come to Me... this way... take my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. But, I was there. I did not place you in the Tower that day. You may not know why, but I do. However, if you were there in that explosive moment in time, would you have reached for Me? Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey for you. But someday your journey will end. And I will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are 'ready to go.' I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.
God
'MEET ME IN THE STAIRWELL'
You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news On September 11, 2001. Neither will I. I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it is OK..I am ready to go.' I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children. I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night. I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said. 'Of course I will show you the way home - only believe in Me now.' I was at the base of the building with the Priest ministering to the injured and devastated souls. I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He heard my voice and answered. I was on all four of those planes, in every seat, with every prayer. I was with the crew as they were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the believers there, comforting and assuring them that their faith has saved them. I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan ... I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. Did you sense Me? I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew every name - though not all know Me. Some met Me for the first time on the 86th floor. Some sought Me with their last breath. Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the smoke and flames; 'Come to Me... this way... take my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. But, I was there. I did not place you in the Tower that day. You may not know why, but I do. However, if you were there in that explosive moment in time, would you have reached for Me? Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey for you. But someday your journey will end. And I will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are 'ready to go.' I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.
God
Monday, September 8, 2008
I know that I sounded down in the dumps a few days ago, but I have had a WONDERFUL past 4 days. Like I said, God ALWAYS meets me where I am and brings me out of my pit. I found a quote today that I really liked but I don't know the author. It is, " The task ahead of me is never as great as the power behind me." Thankfully I have God's strength and power behind me!
I tried dowloading some pictures from the past week, but for some reason the computer is not cooperating with me. Here is a picture of Madison, Christian, and I at the Labor Day parade. Did you notice my new hair cut? I got about 5 inches cut off!
As for the past 4 days, Madison had her first soccer game on Saturday, we had a much needed date night, and I spent some time relaxing and playing with the kids which was a lot of fun. Since I HAVE to have some productivity in my weekend, I cleaned the house top to bottom and changed out the boys' clothes for the next season. Yes, fall is right around the corner. It was a good weekend!
I tried dowloading some pictures from the past week, but for some reason the computer is not cooperating with me. Here is a picture of Madison, Christian, and I at the Labor Day parade. Did you notice my new hair cut? I got about 5 inches cut off!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Check out this site
After thinking about the Democratic and Republican conventions these past 2 weeks and after reading one of my friend's blog pages- thanks Matt, I really started to think about who would truly make the best president for America- Obama or McCain. I found this site on a site of a friend's blog page and had to take the quiz. Take it and tell me what you are. . . or don't if it's too personal.
According to this quiz, I agree with McCain 68% and Obama 32 %. There were some items on this quiz that made me realize that I need to think a little more about how our country is being governed and that I need to really think about some issues that I have not put much thought into and which issues are truly important to me. I hope to do this before November!
This is what the website said about my voting, "When it gets down to it, you tend to best match John McCain.But he's not the perfect candidate for you, and you may not be sold on him yet.Obama shares a good number of your views too, so you might want to give him a second look. It all comes down to which issues matter to you the most. "
http://www.blogthings.com/shouldyouvoteformccainorobamaquiz/
According to this quiz, I agree with McCain 68% and Obama 32 %. There were some items on this quiz that made me realize that I need to think a little more about how our country is being governed and that I need to really think about some issues that I have not put much thought into and which issues are truly important to me. I hope to do this before November!
This is what the website said about my voting, "When it gets down to it, you tend to best match John McCain.But he's not the perfect candidate for you, and you may not be sold on him yet.Obama shares a good number of your views too, so you might want to give him a second look. It all comes down to which issues matter to you the most. "
http://www.blogthings.com/shouldyouvoteformccainorobamaquiz/
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I am going to ramble
Gosh, I almost forgot what my blog page looked like. It has been VERY difficult for me to get to the computer and blog, email, or pay billls. I have even had a difficult time returning phone calls- those of you that are still waiting for a call back- sorry. . . it's coming . . . sometime. For this post I am going to just ramble on for awhile- thanks for listening.
I am not in any pain anymore since I had my root canal last week, but I twisted my ankle this past weekend which was no fun at all. I stayed pretty much off of it on Saturday and Sunday so it felt a TON better on Monday just in time for the Labor Day parade and Last Fling. It was a blast taking the kids to the parade and the Last Fling. Madison is such a daredevil and the boys enjoyed riding the merry go round. Archie and I both realized that as we are growing in age, for some reason we do not do as well on rides. This is very sad and disturbing to us since we LOVE rollercoasters and rides.
My first few days of school I felt lost. The school layout is the exact layout as my last school, but when I walk around nobody is the same- it's weird. The kids are also very different than my last school which has made me revise my ideas and actions of discipline. It has been a transition for me to get used to my new school and all the policies and people in it, but I know that it was a good move for me so I am trying to be patient. I do NOT like the feeling of being lost- who does? Since now it is the 2nd week of school, I am finding my way around and getting to know people so it's getting better. It's easy to forget how a new person feels at times.
I am trying to be patient with my dear beloved children but it has been very challenging lately. I am not sure if it's because of their new schedule or what, but my cutie pies have been a lot to handle lately. The boys are now a year and a half- do I need to say more? And, there are TWO of them. What REALLY gets me annoyed is whining and crying. The boys LOVE to cry when I say "no" or take something away that they want to play with- fun! Let me tell you that there is NOTHING that they don't want to play with. And Madison has recently started to whine. I think that she is whining because she is tired- but still, that is no excuse. When I get annoyed I get very short with people and tend to want ALL control. Actually, it's control that I want, but I do it through the means of wanting perfection with myself, Archie, and my kids. I don't ALWAYS want perfection, but when I am annoyed I do. I try to make everything perfect in the house while everything going on around me is falling apart. I don't know if that sounds weird to you or not, but that's me. To help you understand my head a little better I will give an example: as Christian was crying tonight (because he didn't want to eat the food that I gave him to eat), my thoughts went to how I need to clean the dishes at that very moment and how I really wanted the kitchen and the rest of the house clean- Then my mind goes so many more places- all dealing with perfection and control. Things like I didn't put away the laundry yet that has been sitting there for the past 2 days, I need to work on Madison's writing with her so she can make her "s" better, I should be reading with the boys tonight, but I am too tired, why can't we just have clean walls with no markings on them. I am not sure if you are following me here or not, but overall, when things are NOT going the way that I want them to, I am not always patient and then I start "fighting" for control because at that moment I feel like I have no control. Have any of you been there? It's not like that every day by any means, but I have my days. I NEVER stay in that rut of thought- that out of control feeling because God always reminds me of his love and goodness.
THANKFULLY, the good Lord meets me right there when I feel out of control and sort of lost and when I even sometimes get mad at life. He met me tonight when I was getting Caleb ready for bed. All I will say is making dinner, cleaning up, giving baths, and doing that for 3 tired and irritable children was not a lot of fun tonight so I wasn't my chipper self. I call Caleb my little monster. I love him dearly, but he tests me all the time and I easily get frustrated with him. Well, tonight, I got frustrated with him a lot quicker than I would normally because I was already frustrated with both Christian and Madison. As I was getting Caleb ready for bed and dwelling on some of the "bad" things that he did today and on all the things that I wanted perfect in my life I was reminded of WHO God is. I looked into Caleb's cute little innocent face and his smile melted my heart. I felt God telling me that this is only a phase, a short brief period of time in my life and that HE is in control of it. He knew what he was doing when he gave us the twins and I was reminded to turn to Him and trust in Him and not just in myself. I had a feeling of peace at that moment and just looked at my sweet little boy lying there. I started to thank God for Caleb and I asked God to help me to trust in Him more and not myself- since I just can't do it on my own and I wasn't created to. I was reminded that Caleb and all of my children are God's children and that I also am a child of God. Does God yell at me and get all frustrated with me when I don't do things the way He would want me to? Somehow, he LOVINGLY brings me back to him and reminds me of the truth. I want to show my children the same love and patience that God shows me. I thought about the day in the future that I am going to want the old days back when my kids were young- Would I really want today back when I get older I thought? God reminded me that it's not a big deal if the boys are always kicking off their shoes and I can't find them, it's not a big deal if the dishes stay in the sink tonight, it's alright if I don't put away the laundry, my house is not perfect and that it will never be- get that through your brain now. These things are not the things that really matter in life. I shouldn't be annoyed and have the need of control and perfection in my life. I am already perfect in God's eyes. It's Him who makes me perfect. Jesus dying on the cross has covered my imperfections and his strength allows me to overcome my shortcomings. let me tell you- I have many! Amen to God for who He is and for helping me out ALL the time. What would I be like without his love, guidance, and goodness? EEk! I am glad that I won't ever have to find out.
So, that is me in a nutshell- a complex nutshell- I hope that I didn't scare you.
Just a side note- You all know that Archie helps out a lot, so this is not a blow at all about him not helping- he had an appointment which is part of his job which helps pay the bills- anyway, it's good that I experience evenings like this because it's ALWAYS good to experience God.
I am not in any pain anymore since I had my root canal last week, but I twisted my ankle this past weekend which was no fun at all. I stayed pretty much off of it on Saturday and Sunday so it felt a TON better on Monday just in time for the Labor Day parade and Last Fling. It was a blast taking the kids to the parade and the Last Fling. Madison is such a daredevil and the boys enjoyed riding the merry go round. Archie and I both realized that as we are growing in age, for some reason we do not do as well on rides. This is very sad and disturbing to us since we LOVE rollercoasters and rides.
My first few days of school I felt lost. The school layout is the exact layout as my last school, but when I walk around nobody is the same- it's weird. The kids are also very different than my last school which has made me revise my ideas and actions of discipline. It has been a transition for me to get used to my new school and all the policies and people in it, but I know that it was a good move for me so I am trying to be patient. I do NOT like the feeling of being lost- who does? Since now it is the 2nd week of school, I am finding my way around and getting to know people so it's getting better. It's easy to forget how a new person feels at times.
I am trying to be patient with my dear beloved children but it has been very challenging lately. I am not sure if it's because of their new schedule or what, but my cutie pies have been a lot to handle lately. The boys are now a year and a half- do I need to say more? And, there are TWO of them. What REALLY gets me annoyed is whining and crying. The boys LOVE to cry when I say "no" or take something away that they want to play with- fun! Let me tell you that there is NOTHING that they don't want to play with. And Madison has recently started to whine. I think that she is whining because she is tired- but still, that is no excuse. When I get annoyed I get very short with people and tend to want ALL control. Actually, it's control that I want, but I do it through the means of wanting perfection with myself, Archie, and my kids. I don't ALWAYS want perfection, but when I am annoyed I do. I try to make everything perfect in the house while everything going on around me is falling apart. I don't know if that sounds weird to you or not, but that's me. To help you understand my head a little better I will give an example: as Christian was crying tonight (because he didn't want to eat the food that I gave him to eat), my thoughts went to how I need to clean the dishes at that very moment and how I really wanted the kitchen and the rest of the house clean- Then my mind goes so many more places- all dealing with perfection and control. Things like I didn't put away the laundry yet that has been sitting there for the past 2 days, I need to work on Madison's writing with her so she can make her "s" better, I should be reading with the boys tonight, but I am too tired, why can't we just have clean walls with no markings on them. I am not sure if you are following me here or not, but overall, when things are NOT going the way that I want them to, I am not always patient and then I start "fighting" for control because at that moment I feel like I have no control. Have any of you been there? It's not like that every day by any means, but I have my days. I NEVER stay in that rut of thought- that out of control feeling because God always reminds me of his love and goodness.
THANKFULLY, the good Lord meets me right there when I feel out of control and sort of lost and when I even sometimes get mad at life. He met me tonight when I was getting Caleb ready for bed. All I will say is making dinner, cleaning up, giving baths, and doing that for 3 tired and irritable children was not a lot of fun tonight so I wasn't my chipper self. I call Caleb my little monster. I love him dearly, but he tests me all the time and I easily get frustrated with him. Well, tonight, I got frustrated with him a lot quicker than I would normally because I was already frustrated with both Christian and Madison. As I was getting Caleb ready for bed and dwelling on some of the "bad" things that he did today and on all the things that I wanted perfect in my life I was reminded of WHO God is. I looked into Caleb's cute little innocent face and his smile melted my heart. I felt God telling me that this is only a phase, a short brief period of time in my life and that HE is in control of it. He knew what he was doing when he gave us the twins and I was reminded to turn to Him and trust in Him and not just in myself. I had a feeling of peace at that moment and just looked at my sweet little boy lying there. I started to thank God for Caleb and I asked God to help me to trust in Him more and not myself- since I just can't do it on my own and I wasn't created to. I was reminded that Caleb and all of my children are God's children and that I also am a child of God. Does God yell at me and get all frustrated with me when I don't do things the way He would want me to? Somehow, he LOVINGLY brings me back to him and reminds me of the truth. I want to show my children the same love and patience that God shows me. I thought about the day in the future that I am going to want the old days back when my kids were young- Would I really want today back when I get older I thought? God reminded me that it's not a big deal if the boys are always kicking off their shoes and I can't find them, it's not a big deal if the dishes stay in the sink tonight, it's alright if I don't put away the laundry, my house is not perfect and that it will never be- get that through your brain now. These things are not the things that really matter in life. I shouldn't be annoyed and have the need of control and perfection in my life. I am already perfect in God's eyes. It's Him who makes me perfect. Jesus dying on the cross has covered my imperfections and his strength allows me to overcome my shortcomings. let me tell you- I have many! Amen to God for who He is and for helping me out ALL the time. What would I be like without his love, guidance, and goodness? EEk! I am glad that I won't ever have to find out.
So, that is me in a nutshell- a complex nutshell- I hope that I didn't scare you.
Just a side note- You all know that Archie helps out a lot, so this is not a blow at all about him not helping- he had an appointment which is part of his job which helps pay the bills- anyway, it's good that I experience evenings like this because it's ALWAYS good to experience God.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I am in pain! I need to get a root canal on Monday. Isn't saying those words painful enough? I went to the dentist before school started this week to see if they could do whatever they needed to do, but they said that my tooth was too "hyper" to work on so they sent me home with some antibiotics and told me to come back on Monday. After taking pain relievers and these antibiotics that make my stomach hurt- I am still in pain and feel discomfort. Oh well, such is life. Tuesday night, the night of Madison's first soccer practice, I took some pain medicine and went to bed at 6:30. . . .even before the kids did. That was also the night before Madison's "sneak peek" to kindergarten. I felt bad that I wasn't able to stay up with her and get her ready for her big day, but like I said I was in a lot of pain. . . and I was exhausted. Archie did AWESOME with her- he gave her her bath, talked about kindergarten, and put her to bed so sweetly. He did a better job than I could have. I have to remember to not just let Archie be a PART of the big things, but to be the LEADER in those big things- I want too much of the control and I tend to "run the show" with these types of things. Surprising huh? But, since Wed. was my 1st day back to work and Madison didn't want to miss seeing me leave, she was up at 6:30bright and early to see me go so we were able to spend some precious time together then. I am thankful for that.
Madison had her "sneak peek" to kindergarten on Wed. and today she actually had her 1st real day of school. Archie took her to school on both of these days. He even sent me a text with her picture outside of the school while I was at work which totally made my day. I am so glad that Madison's Daddy was able to spend this monumental day with her. . . and take a few pictures while doing so. After I got home from work Madison said "I think that my teacher is going to be my best friend since she is SO sweet." I thought that that was sweet.
Otherwise, I have been in pain this week and have been very exhausted starting back at school. Oh, I have some good news- I DO have my own desk in my office! Yippeeee! I was told that I would have to share desks with my job-share parner- but they were wrong. My assistant principal said that every teacher must have a desk- I was delighted to hear that! So, I will be getting my desk all ready for the new school year tomorrow with pictures and etc. Yipee! I also have a girls' weekend with my mom and sisters tomorrow so that will be fun too! Life is good . . . even though I am in pain.
Here is Madison on her sneak peek day with me in the morning and on her 1st day of school.
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